How is the energy of early Spring for you? It’s a beautiful time to be alive. I’m watching flora and fauna and friends and people in my community grow and explore and unfold into more of themselves and find confidence in their love and their capacity for contribution and belonging. I can feel that seasonal tension too, the tension of budding – all that potential and need to expand and grow palpating but not quite full enough to burst into a new form. It can be easy to push or collapse when we feel this type of press and finding ways to stay with the feelings is an art. Leaning into intuition and softness and trusting the magic of life’s larger expression really helps me to breathe through these times and release patterns of anxious control.
At the moment I am working with embodying love, connecting with the energy of my heart and letting life guide me even when I don’t really understand the direction. Wow! What a journey! The first step has been reducing my resistance to my current circumstances and accepting the rich lessons that challenging emotional situations can bring. Accepting that much of life is out of my control and practicing openness and curiosity. I feel incredibly grateful for this time and I am reframing and releasing past and freeing myself from patterns of ‘missing’ and ‘longing’ that keep me from enjoying the present and orienting to gratitude, safety, fulfilment and sharing my gifts. Life has offered me a mirror that is allowing me to see and take responsibility for transmuting some deeply held insecurities.
One of the challenges of being human is that we inherit and choose beliefs about ourselves and the world based on our earliest experiences and often these are outdated, buried in our subconscious and shaping our behaviour in the present. We strive out of a need to be congruent with these old beliefs which might ease our fear or anxiety transiently but which do not lead us to lasting fulfilment or connect us to our natural aliveness and harmony with other life systems.
How will life change if I consciously choose a new belief that “I am love” and choose to act in alignment with that regardless of the external conditions of my life? Suddenly I move from striving to being. From craving to contribution. I want to be clear that how this looks is infinite and different for each person and their context. Some folks love through their work, some folks love through small unseen gestures, some love by holding a line even when they stand to lose everything, some folks love by staying alive.
What’s all this got to do with purpose? Well love is a powerful purpose for me. I believe in unconditional love as the greatest expression of co-operation. I am wanting to live as an expression of love, gratitude and creativity. This means I must locate and transmute all my obstacles to this belief and my attachment to ineffective coping strategies. I must learn to notice when I am striving for significance and certainty through achievement, comparison or the approval of those around me and change my behaviour to realign with love.
Practice makes practice and here is a working hypothesis – purpose is a moment by moment practice. Each moment I can ask myself how can I be more loving? Simple and extremely complex! Not to worry though because the great thing is I can ask for the loving support of this friendly multiverse to help me when I’ve not got a clue – which is a lot of the time!! This way I can move into clarity and this is empowering because when you have clarity you can move into congruence and then you move without being in internal conflict.
On a final note as an additional part of my heart work I am offering 100 free six card ‘path of the heart’ tarot readings. There are 95 left if you’d like take me up on this please email me at mousedanger31@yahoo.co.uk for further details. There is no sales pitch it’s just a free reading!
love Alex